Saturday, November 29, 2008
quick updateit's my Mom's bday today! =) And instead of giving her an Orovo detox as a birthday gift, I made a baked macaroni for everyone instead. And not really bad for a first timer like me, my baked mac is yummy. I haven't had enough sleep yet since yesterday because we were so busy for the preparation (visitors arrived as early as 3AM dawn).
Gotta grab some sleep now. Tata!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
just in time for Thanksgivingi was there, so messed up, scared and nowhere to go. i was totally trembling, praying for some miracles. i kept on asking myself how did I ended up to this troubled life. i conversed to some random people that i met, asking for their help, and hoping to get an ounce of courage from them. and i realized, it's my own battle, and they just don't care. i cried.
then my fast-beating heart woke me up.
i froze for a couple of minutes before it sinked in to me that i was in my room. i hurriedly say a thanksgiving prayer. feels like this is my second chance of life.
yes, I have so many things to be thankful in my life amidst everything. And honestly, I never felt this thankful in my lifetime.
treasure every second in your life and the people that matters to you. life is too short.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
becks
becks caught by paparazzi while texting me...Labels: beckham
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
no airTell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake
It’s ’cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh
I’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave
My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete
If there was a way that I can make you understand
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
It’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
It’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon’ be without me
If you ain’t here, I just can’t breathe
It’s no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There’s no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I’m still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don’t know how, but I don’t even care
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe
Monday, November 24, 2008
where am i good at?i know i am good on a lot of things, especially those things not worth mentioning... (meaning, mga negative) but seriously, i wanted to be good in cooking, i just never had an opportunity in my lifetime. but, never too late, right?
i am actually excited to bake for the first time. yaay! let's see, it's quite a challenge for me. Who knows, this will be my business in the future? hehehe. I already imagine my own store with a digital signage on it. dream on!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
saturday is a shopping day.i am currently looking for a health and life insurance. probably I am already talking about this a lot of times here, but, our priority right now is an HMO especially for my parents. I've checked some of the known health insurance here, and it's so expensive. hopefully we can finalize this as soon as possible. maybe, a travel medical insurance is also worth checking out too.
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i am stressed out the past days with so many things.
i've worked hard.
i lack sleep.
and i deserve a shopping spree.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
a thoughtbecause at the end of the day, what matters most is not how you are being treated with people and how life is treating you in general; but, how you handle things, and the character you portrayed that defines yourself during those tough times.
i maybe a failure a lot of times. all i need is to forgive myself, and move on.
Am super kilig of Peter Petrelli.... I mean, Milo Ventimiglia while watching Fergie's "Big Girls Don't Cry" music video. Just look it up in Youtube, and you know what I mean. Pic below is one of the scenes in the video.
i know lot of girls and those girls at heart are going gaga over him! but... sowee, he's already taken...According to People:
Although he plays her uncle onscreen, Ventimiglia, 30, is spotted holding hands with costar Hayden Panettiere, 18, at a local mall in L.A. The PDA confirmation of their relationship comes after months of sightings and denials from both stars. "When you're in the public eye, you try to keep whatever you can private," he tells GQ. "People can speculate and talk. But what can you do – stop living your life?"--
Already felt their chemistry during their first scenes together even if he was playing as her Uncle. Mao sad na akong power, mananag-an! =)
Pix taken from daemonstv and partyhopper
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
you are just like a pill..."instead of making me better, you keep making me ill..."
a line from my favorite song during videoke times. i know a lot of people can relate this song.
aside from the dietpill that we can buy from drugstores, i know people who had "pills" in their lives that ruin them, and made them miserable.
haay, this is one of those crappy post that i have.
my mind is actually blank. tired and exhausted.
Monday, November 17, 2008
bonitato my ever bonita amiga...
happy birthday!!!
i know I owe you a lot especially that I keep on messing up during your birthday! and i owe you a lot for so many other reasons. thank you for everything =)
i am so happy for you, you deserve all the blessings you have right now. keep on inspiring others, and indeed US made you more bonita. pwamis. mwaah!
i know I owe you a lot especially that I keep on messing up during your birthday! and i owe you a lot for so many other reasons. thank you for everything =)
i am so happy for you, you deserve all the blessings you have right now. keep on inspiring others, and indeed US made you more bonita. pwamis. mwaah!
from your messed up fwend. hehe.
ps. nangawat diay ko ug pix nmo sa friendster. =)
Friday, November 14, 2008
wishlisthere's another earthly wishlist that I have:
1. a liz claiborne wallet - there's already a sponsor for this. excited! yaay! thanks po ;)
2. a pair of levi's
3. a jewelry set - i want a white gold hehe.
4. perfume ... and more perfume! - lacoste, ck1, cool water ... i want to try elizabeth arden too. i am hearing a lot of good reviews about it. any scent will do actually. as long as it's not an immitation. hehhe.
5. a starbucks mug - i dropped by Starbucks awhile ago, and saw their mugs. It just occurred to me that I want to have one.
6. a nice headphone - my old one is broken, though, I am still using it. And I prefer with mic, coz I am using it for voice chat. :p
7. shopping spree! - need i say more? :D
There are talking watches that I also fancy. But, I will leave it for Chy. I think she will like it. Heheh.
Well, these are material things, and I know there are more important things than this. I also have another set of non-earthly wishes... lots of them actually! Maybe, I will not post it here nalang.
I won't mind not having these things this Christmas, but, I admit, owning these things will definitely make me smile. =)
Thursday, November 13, 2008
die just a littleit doesn't matter what i do
it doesn't matter what they say
coz everything i see around me
reminds me of the day you went away
if i tell my friends that i'm alright
it doesn't mean that i don't cry late at night
i know that at the end of every tunnel
there's a ray of hope, a guiding light
but baby for tonight i think
i'll die just a little
cry some more
trying to remember how it was before
let me die just a little
i'll be fine
soon as i can get you off my mind
soon as i can get you off my mind
it's been more than just a while
but i don't seem to feel the need to smile
what's the point?
when the only thing that matters to me just walks away
how can you just walk away?
give me one more day
i need to die just a little
cry some more
trying to remember how it was before
let me die just a little
i'll be fine
soon as i can get you off my mind
i'm not sure how this will go
but loving you is all i know
maybe there's a chance
to find a way to love again
maybe until then
maybe until then
die just a little
cry some more
trying to remember how it was before
let me die just a little
i'll be fine
soon as i can get you off my mind
~ side a
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
time to let goi am letting go of you. and i am sad that I can't do anything about it anymore. i tried to fix you, but, i think it's time for you to retire....
goodbye reddy. it's been a pleasure working with you. and now, it's time to welcome pinky! i know it will take quite awhile for me to be comfortable with you, but, rest assured, i will take care of you as much as i did with reddy.
if you think I am so kikay to choose pinky, wait til you see her cousin.... hahahha!!
today is a happy day. la, la, la, la.......
Monday, November 10, 2008
a grateful hearti know I am not as lucky as other people, but this does not stop me from being thankful and nonetheless, also feel lucky on what I have and where I am now. Yes, I have my own share of pain, but, in the middle of these struggles, I have found a great sense of appreciation on things and people that are with me. A comforting word, a reassuring hug, and their mere presence in my life made me stronger.
this is probably one of those emo post that I usually avoid posting here, but, I am posting it anyway. what triggers this? a message I got from a friend. thank you follower! ;)
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i want to face the year 2009 with positive outlook in life. And as early as now, I am preparing myself to become the person I wanted to be. I just believe that a new year is a great opportunity to start anew. If it takes a colon cleanse, or a spiritual cleanse to be prepared, then, I will do it. One day at a time.
Tonight the sky above
Reminds me how to love
Walking through wintertime, the stars all shine
The angel on the stairs
Will tell you I was there
Under the front porch light
On the mistery night
I’ve been sitting, watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back
Could I get you off my mind
This time
The neon lights and bars
And headlights from the cars
Started a symphony surrounding me
The things I left behind
Have melted in my mind
And now there’s a purity inside of me
I’ve been sitting, watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back
Could I get you off my mind
This time
~ Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Reminds me how to love
Walking through wintertime, the stars all shine
The angel on the stairs
Will tell you I was there
Under the front porch light
On the mistery night
I’ve been sitting, watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back
Could I get you off my mind
This time
The neon lights and bars
And headlights from the cars
Started a symphony surrounding me
The things I left behind
Have melted in my mind
And now there’s a purity inside of me
I’ve been sitting, watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back
Could I get you off my mind
This time
~ Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Saturday, November 08, 2008
disappointments come and goi've been dealing with disappointment for quite awhile now, but, i always try to pacify myself with my own good thoughts. but, time comes that my angel side of me can't take it anymore. but i already made a promise to focus on positive things and i thought i have seen some light already. thanks to some people who help me realize these things.
so i have been consulting myself if having this negative feeling is against the rule of the thumb. so i dealt with it. and i am so proud of myself because i was so ready to jump to nowhere and let go of things that i thought not good anymore. if I don't feel needed and wanted on certain things, so it's time to go.
but we are just people. we commit mistakes. we forget things. and we forgive. so, here i am again, trying to fulfill the role i have in other people's lives.
do i make sense here? maybe not.
everything is perfect when I am with you... :)
Thursday, November 06, 2008
i am working hardnot because I want to play harder, but because I want to buy something for my mother. Sure, my credit card can afford the item, but, I want to pay in cash. Hehehe. Seriously, I want to pay all my debts in my credit card too. I hope before the year ends (syeet, only a month left) I can accomplish these things. I hope.
and Christmas is fast approaching too, so I really need to budget for gifts. I hope I can avail the promotional products most malls offer right now so that I can save. And if my budget does not permit for a Christmas gift, pwede free hugs nalng? Hehehe.
49 days to go! =)
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
everyday....is a constant struggle. a struggle ...
to understand things,
to overcome the evil within,
to adapt to changes,
to let go of things without bitterness,
to be happy with other's happiness even if it means me not being part of it,
and everyday, i learned...
that I don't have to be afraid of uncertainty,
that sometimes I am too blinded and focused on some things that I neglected other things that are more important and real,
that happiness can be found on simple things.
and i am keeping this happy disposition in life whatever trials i may have along the way. =)
Barack Obama swept to victory as US first black president.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
election daytoday is US election day. Many hope that Obama will win and i think by popular votes, he will win. Thanks to our lawyer here, who enlightened me on US election process and it's not the same as how we do it here. And with their election process, even if Obama wins in most of the surveys, it's not a guarantee still that he will be the next US president.
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no Heroes this week. :( is it because it's election week? so what?
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i love Ellen Degeneres. I love her show. I am always entertained. :) She made me go home early (like midnight instead of dawn) from work. I think I need to buy some of those self defense products since I am going home at night. It's good to be always on guard.
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i need an airconditioned room. sadness. :(
collecting those 24 starbucks stickers in exchange of their planner has been a good marketing strategy of Starbucks. Me and my sister got hooked with it. It's not that I badly need those planners... but, there's an excitement to own one and complete those stickers.
So, Naksi told me that it officially begins today, November 4 and people online are searching about it. And me? I am already scheduling dates with my friends who are coffeeholic like me to visit Starbucks one of these days ;)
Labels: starbucks
Monday, November 03, 2008
i miss you...and i can only express how much i miss you in my silent prayers,
i felt a sudden pang in my heart seeing how things changed;
sometimes, i still wish you were here,
because you brought something good to people.
you will always be in my prayers.
and i miss you so much.
ok, so my 2 previous entries showed up. i think it was blogger's problem. i've been blogging for 3 years already and it's my first time to experience such problem. so, i therefore conclude, it's not my fault. hehe.
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someone told me before that i should be a lawyer, and i could only laugh! but then the statement made me get curious of what is it like to be a lawyer and my curiousity made me realize too that i don't want to be a lawyer. like any other field, you can also specialize on a particular case. You may may be a lawyer that deals with real estate problems, or you can be one of the cerebral palsy lawyers, or a lawyer that only signs affidavit of loss. hahaha!!
i think being a lawyer is just too complicated for me. i want simple life. period.
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i was having the best sleep last night. deep and peaceful sleep. i hope it's a sign to byebye insomnia. but, it's almost 3Am already, and i am still wide awake. :(
Sunday, November 02, 2008
blogger problem?for some unknown reasons, my previous post did not show up.
the dashboard tells me that it was already published.
hmmm... hope this post will show up.
or is it a browser issue?
no idea...
15 days and 14 hours more to go til David Cook's album release.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
tsk.just slept for an hour last night/this morning.
i tried to sleep, but there's this word that keeps on flashing my mind and it disturbs me big time.
i think i am getting crazy.
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some people are just born lucky.
damn lucky.
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