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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

sgt pepper's lonely hearts club band

we had an "inuman" session last saturday night with my friends. Somebody just became a member of the club! he has a different story compared to some of my friends and mine, but, definitely, it's a heartbreaking one. it's so easy for us to say "forget her and move on", but i know deep inside, it will be very difficult for him. he has still to undergo a long process and different stages before he can say that "i am perfectly fine".

there we are, laughing the whole night with our corny jokes, while reminiscing our college days. i know it was what he needed -- a good laugh. i was happy he chose to be with us that night, than staying alone in his room. a friend of mine interviewed him with the details of the breakup, and he hesitantly answered and begged us not to hate her... now, that's what we call LOVE, huh? i can't blame him saying that. the best we can do is be there for him especially when he needs us.

Well, that's what "hearbreak" is all about. things would not be easy... sad songs make you more sad, and so are the happy songs. you will laugh for a moment, but, eventually, you will also cry. good memories won't make you feel good either, and the bad ones make things worse.

or, i might be wrong. my friend might handle pain perfectly well.

PS. regarding the title, i was just reminded by the beatles' song while writing this entry. made me miss my father, the greatest beatles fan. =)

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Friday, January 27, 2006

broken vow

My mp3 player was on a shuffle mode and i suddenly bumped with this old and very sad song in my playlist. Ouucccchhhhhh!!!

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end

PS: Can i post some pix of the people i have in mind, para mas may dating ang song??... hahaha!! Joan, no garbage in your blog, please!!

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

sail on!

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. ~ Mark Twain

Before the great Morales - Paquiao battle, i was invited to bet for Paquiao by an officemate. And instantly, i said no. I didn't even had a guts to see the fight on tv (though eventually i did), and the first three rounds was as agony for me, feeling the pain of my "whatifs " and afraid to get disappointed. When a friend texted me that Paquaio won, (since ABS-CBN had a delay telecast), that was the time that i felt comfortable watching it. Because I knew, it was a happy ending. I even watched the replay later on.

I also remembered having an opportunity to play in a casino with friends, but, all i did was just see them play. I can't risk my 100pesos either. Yes, I was never a gambler, a risk taker. I wanted to play safe, to be always secured, always protected. But i did try gambling before. That was the biggest gamble i ever did. And, for awhile, i thought it was the most right thing to do. But now, i am not so sure of that anymore because it turned out that I lost at the end, and i lost BIG too.

I know that in this lifetime, there is no such thing as security, but only opportunity. I know that I have to eventually risk and be ready to get hurt again. I have to come out from my shell. I have to lose sight of the shore. Afterall, that's what life is all about..

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Friday, January 20, 2006

thanks God it's Friday!

i love Fridays! i think everyone loves fridays. this is the day that i look forward to lazy weekends.. got lots of dvds waiting for me at home. i usually ignored them during weekdays coz i am also busy with my other addiction... si TJ! (to those who don't know who TJ is, please refer previous post.yun cya! )

talking about addiction, i hope ill get addicted to go to the gym at least 4 times a week (that's what my trainor recommends). At last! i already enrolled myself to the gym for one year, and it's all up to me now.. whether to move my butt to the gym, or let my money go into waste.. woaaah!!!!!

happy weekend!!

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

i'm in love!

this is the guy who made me fall in love again...
the guy who changed something in me... (like going home early..)
the guy who made me feel that i am so young...
and most of all..
the guy who made me a certified jologs.... waaaaaahhh!!!

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