Saturday, November 26, 2005
damnitAnd I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
~~
who the hell are you to make me feel this way???
Friday, November 25, 2005
is this some kinda true??| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating |
 You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
Thursday, November 24, 2005
guilt-ridden me
Just hearing your voice washed away my loneliness... atleast for awhile. Your voice is an assurance that things will be okay, that you will always be there for me whatever happens, that you will always be my greatest fan.
It's been my personality to call you from out of the blue even with no apparent reasons at all. And last night was one of those. Maybe because, lately, I've been so helpless and weak, and I needed someone whom I could get strength with and i was hoping that i could get if from you. But, you had another concerns, a different problem to share and it's been my role to listen and help you out from it. But, this time, i was selfish. I was not ready to listen. I want to listen a happy voice, a happy news or even just an ordinary story. That's why, an irritated voice came out from me as i hurriedly said goodbye and put down the phone.
SILENCE. PAIN. I was hurt because i know i hurt you. You don't deserve that. I promised to myself that i will always protect you and help you taste the luxuries in life as much as i can. And i'll do everything to keep that promise, even if it means keeping some things to myself.
I called back, bringing good news over your concern. Yes, i managed to get a solution in a snap of a finger. You were very happy hearing it and nothing could ever make me happier too.. you, laughing at the other end of the line, and repeatedly thanking me. All i really wanna say is " I'm sorry mom, and I love you. You simply deserve the best in this world. "
Now, i can sleep soundly tonight.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
child at heart
Something just made me smile today. I received my first gift in our "kris-kringle" here in the office. It's the first gift i received for this christmas. I don't know, I am just so so happy, and so excited while opening the gift. It was even beautifully wrapped! Talagang pinaghirapan.. call me "mababaw", but i think simple things just make me happy.
but then, simple things make me sad too, like an unexpected news from a friend leaving us here in the office. My mood suddenly turned 180 degrees. Is it because i was reminded of a stupidity that i have done in my life before? Or is it because of the mp3s that i repeatedly played since last weekend?
Thursday, November 17, 2005
not again..
Last night you were there again.
Disturbing my long-fought peacefulness that i have
You were knocking at my mind, my soul.
And there I was, restless, crying in the middle of the night.
Trying to fight memories that are haunting me.
You are killing me softly, ruining everything that is in me..
I took the plunge, I took the risk
But you, you were never at my back all along
What have I done wrong all these times?
When I suffer, do you even have a little share of it too?
I managed to go to the ocean
I managed to go this far.
Now, let me get back to my shore, where I truly belong.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
because of youI will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
~ kelly clarkson
Labels: music
Friday, November 11, 2005
chicken little
genre: animation / action / adventure / comedyruntime: 81min
i swear i'm gonna watch this!! can't wait! when will this be shown in the Philippines? ~ ~ s i g h ~ ~
Thursday, November 10, 2005
3 days offLuckily, my work sked allows me to enjoy a 3-days off from work every month ( and so with a 1 day off), and i just had one last weekend. and here's what i've been doing...
s a t u r d a y
i treated myself to a "no-alarm-clock-day" and woke up at 12noon. i was able to watch tv shows that i seldom see during work days like "game ka na ba" .i just love kris aquino's wit and sarcasm!
thinking on how to have a productive saturday, i hurriedly go to the office and have my dance practice even if it's out of sked. ('kala mo kung mag OT no?) thanks God. my officemate turned choreographer is as bored as I am too.
then, from out of the blue, a friend texted me and we had a get together for a couple of hours. ( we don't have the luxury time) God, it feels so good to laugh!
s u n d a y
movie marathon! i had 5 dvds and vcds waiting for me. i finished 4 movies before realizing that i haven't been out from my room the whole day. here are my personal reviews on the movies that i watched.
the forgotten
genre: drama/ mystery / sci-fi / thriller
comment: ok lang. not too dramatic to the point of making me cry, nor a thriller that could raise my heartbeat. in short, 'di ako nasindak!
robots
genre: science fiction / fantasy and animation
comment: i always love this kind of movies... but still, nothing beats ice age!
kung fu hustle
genre: action / comdey / crime
comment: at first, i thought it's another boring chinese movie. but, mind you, it certainly exceeds my expectation.
catwoman
genre: action / adventure , science fiction / fantasy , crime
comment: i love halle berry and benjamin bratt. but, the movie just sucks. peace!
wimbledon
genre : comedy and romance
comment: i hate this movie for some subjective reasons. And don't ask me why.
there you go... you think i could pass for a professional critic?? hehehe...
m o n d a y
time to get serious with things and enough for my laziness. i was able to visit the doctor at last! my mom was so happy that i was able to move my butt and visit the clinic alone. i was supposed to have my check-up a month ago...
and how could i miss the "kerygma feast"? Bo Sanchez is just an amazing and gifted speaker! He shared some true to life experiences and stories to let us understand what this statement means: "You can neve be spiritually mature if you are not emotionally mature". Some people are just so blessed with the gift of touching people's lives by words! Well, the first monday of the month will always be something to look forward to!
what a weekend!
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